Tuesday, June 24, 2008

The Fading Light

For those who've read my earlier post (the glorious light ----> HERE )
You'll probably kinda understand this one, if you haven't read it, take a look, maybe it'll help.

This is a poem i wrote quite a while ago, and it seemed appropriate to put it on the blog only after a good deal of time had passed since i had written it. Anyway, for the individual involved....... i hope your Goa trip had never happened, and i wish i hadn't said or done the things that i did/said.

For those not involved with it, just enjoy it, or try to, or atleast act as if you've enjoyed it!


The Fading Light.

To Nupur...

I long for you like I always did,
The distance never did me good.
The light is fading, that glorious light.
I wished I would see you, but I never could.

Time apart you said, would help.
I believed you then, I don’t know why.
The light is fading, that glorious light.
I desire you again, as I look to the sky.

I miss the glory, I miss the jollity.
I tried to forget you, and I failed miserably,
The light is fading, that glorious light.
I can’t live without you, I know now.

I’ts getting darker, it’s hard to think.
Your memory clouds around me, pictures of you everywhere.
I made too many mistakes, I accept.
But the pain is too much, its too much to bear.

I languish in the agony of my loss.
I want you back, I need you back.
The light is fading, that glorious light.
Take my apology, my love, before I crack.

Will you come back to me, will you be mine again.
Forgive me, Rescue me from this plight.
I promise not to err again, I cannot so dare.
The light is fading, that glorious light.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Sarkar Raj


Again, I find myself devoid of the ability to write poetry. I don’t really understand the mechanism behind this, sometimes it just flows, and sometimes it just doesn’t! I don’t really know how to tackle this, but then it’s been quite a while since I posted anything on this blog. This would probably be the next post after the “meme” (pronounced /mi: m/), [or so I’ve been led to believe]. Anyway, back to the point. Since I wasn’t able to conjure up some poetry, I decided to write about the next thing that comes to mind – POLITICS. Yeah I know it seems a little weird to relate poetry with politics, IT IS! I’m not really relating them at all. It all started after I watched SARKAR RAJ. I quite enjoyed the movie, and I spent a lot of time in Pimpri where I was closely related to the political happenings of the place. I saw how politics in India works in real-time. This might not seem like something special or something interesting to many, but take my word for it, IT IS! (I like using caps [;)] )

So when I watched this movie, it brought back a few random thoughts. I had seen the first installment of SARKAR, so I had some clue about how the movie would be. I was surprised. The first one had a lot of action and a bit of politics. This one was all politics. I don’t wish to ruin the suspense for people that haven’t watched it yet (oh but I do, I just have an evil streak – so anyway about half way through the second half, Abhishek Bacchan kicks the bucket). LMFAO. Seriously!

Back to the point, this movie gives a vague idea about how ruthless politics is in India and especially in Maharashtra. A lot of people that will watch the movie will think it’s just glorified. But believe you me, this is almost exactly what really happens. There’s this whole Peshwe vs Maharaz vs Saheb War that goes on, (Vilasrao Deshmukh vs Thakarey vs Sharad Pawar, the nicknames are used in by politically involved people in Pimpri, that’s where I picked it up). Anyway, this movie makes this kinda political intrigue very familiar. It impressed me, irrespective of what the critics might say, I loved it.

Aishwarya Rai – Bacchan (yeah that sounds vague to me too) was really hot. Which is a plus point, Abhishek Bacchan was present (I cant say much better), Amitabh Bacchan is GOD, atleast in the second part of the movie, that old geyser can give any born actor a run for his money even when he’s half asleep or high!

It’s all political intrigue, a well woven plot, its like a goddamn spider-web. Brilliant, but seriously confusing at times. There’s a whole lot of conspiracy, a thrilling mystery movie. But believe me, if you aren’t into Indian politics, or haven’t ever experienced anything remotely close to Maharashtra politics, stay away from this movie, its difficult to relate to! I know I have, so I’ll go ahead and rate this movie 4 outta 5.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

The Brand MEME

I was glancing through Mo's blog, and i came across an entry where he'd done this brand meme. At the bottom of that post, i realised he'd tagged me to do a meme myself. From his post
[ HERE ]; it wasn't very difficult to understand what it was. Though there exists a challenge here. Anyway, before i get to that, let me explain briefly what a meme really is. Well the idea behind this, as Mo would put it is "Take any day in your life and chart out all the brands you have used"

I did this, firstly i listed out all the stuff that i use on a normal day, then listed out the brand-names of all those things. Then i set about trying to put this on a blog. This is where the problem happened. If you've taken a look at Mo's blog entry, you'll notice that after the stuff that's written, there's a whole lot of brand images stacked up rather nicely. THIS was particularly hard for me, cuz i dont know how to put images on the blog. There's one solitary image on this blog, i guess you've noticed that. So this was the hard part. Well, anyway i googled a search to find out how to put images on the blog. It listed out the basic method, which i figured would be functional, but wouldn't make my entry as presentable as his. I kept searching for other methods, and it turns out there's various blog websites & all of these have different methods of uploading pictures/images. I finally got rather pissed off and decided to go the old way and just upload them and not worry about how the blog looks after i've published the entry.

So, i dont quite know how this is going to turn out. But, i'm hoping for the best. Alright. Here's the list of brands that i use on a normal day.













Thursday, April 24, 2008

Confessions

There's so much to tell, it's difficult to bear,

But i must not say, I cannot so dare.

So many secrets, so much is hidden,

With an urge to speak, my mind is ridden.


It's all a facade, nothing can i reveal,

Why still do my thoughts, so pained feel?

I tried to conceal and tried again.

Still do i feel an aching strain.

To everyone, there are things i hide,

In none can i truthfully confide.

My agony is true, the mask is not.

In silent anguish does my memory rot.


How do i restore, rid myself of the distress.

Is there no way out, other than to confess?

I'm tired, can't take it anymore

Too many secrets, my mind is sore.


The world before me seems anarchic, uncouth.

I cannot sustain this, but I speak not the truth.

I have become like the living dead,

Bear this burden someone, in my stead.


The veracity will be out soon, my wait will end.

I held on this long, soon I will transcend.

I will myself to endure, to ignore the prick.

I’m almost there now, and its happening quick!


Finally my wait is over. It’s all done.

I am victorious, I actually won!

No more secrets, no more confessions.

No more pain, no more questions!

Monday, April 7, 2008

The free mind - and Pimpri!

Sometimes, the mind speaks freely.

A barrage of unrelated thoughts. Complete confusion. But it makes sense. There’s no need to contemplate, there’s no compulsion to decipher, no exigency to analyze. It just makes sense. All I have to do is sit idle and let my mind speak to me.

Different thoughts, different emotions – all at the same time. I don’t letch for enlightenment, I don’t desire intellectual freedom, I just want time to think! Jubilation, joviality, rage, despair, frustration, love, hate etc. all these emotions come freely. I feel like I’m confounded, but, I’m not! I’m thinking more clearly than I’ve done for a long time! It’s never easy to think like that, there’s always something more important, urgent playing on the mind. Always something that solicits more impetus than idleness. So, its rather difficult to bring myself to behave like this, or to think like this! I wish for the license to think freely – which RTO officer to do I have to pay and how much to get that license? [;)]

Pimpri’s done me good. I understand India a lot better than I used to. It’s not what we read about, its not what we think about, its not what we imagine. On the ground, reality struck me hard, struck me across the side of my head. Two things I realized are of utmost importance here, one is money, the other is “contacts”. This side of the world, your intellectual capabilities count as much as your ability to ride a unicycle on a crowded Vallabh Nagar street. Let me not make it sound like Pimpri’s hell on earth, its not, but its close!

Back to the main point – money and contacts. If you have either of the two, you can live comfortably, if you’ve got both, you’re the king! If you have neither, you might as well pack up and take your ass back home cuz you aint surviving here! Let me narrate a story, there was this chick from Mumbai who came to live in Pimpri, she used to prance around the area leaving the hormone-infested jocks with their mouths wide open (sorry for being oh so crude, but it gets the point across). There exist some politically connected guys (ugly, frustrated but moneyed 20 something’s) who’s claim to fame is that they bring their cars and stand around the college in a large group heckling everybody that walks by, getting into fights for no reason at all, smoking, making loud conversations etc (you get the point, you’ve seem them too sometime, somewhere). Well these guys, seem to have their eyes on every new PYT that crosses paths with Pimpri. To this day, not one of them has ever got any attention, but that’s aside from the point. Well as the story goes, this chick used to keep garnering a lot of their attention. One of these cronies decided that she was to be his wife! (ah yes, wife). He attempted to approach her a few times, but nothing ever came of it, still, he was madly in “love”. Time passed, the chick continued to ignore these rowdy behemoths. Now is where the story gets interesting. There comes along this guy from Delhi, nice guy – decent, intelligent etc. The chick’s caught his attention too (like anyone doubted that), but then the difference is, she’s interested too. They meet, they talk, they go out a couple of times. Love is blooming. Until, the ogre finds out. One day there’s a scuffle somewhere around Pimpri, and upon inquiry, I realize that a set of behemoths entered Delhi’s house (hostel room) and beat the living shit out of him, tell him to stay away from ogre’s future wife. And walk away. Nothing more is heard of this, except that Delhi’s got a disfigured face, a broken hand, and several other bruises, apart from the bruised ego!

Delhi decides to fight but then is talked out of it cuz face it, once more, and they’ll just leave ashes! Delhi is distraught. Delhi is from Delhi, knows nobody here, doesn’t have the money to pay the police and get the ogre into trouble, doesn’t know enough people who’ve got the balls to take on the ogre one-to-one. (Oh, the ogre, however large he may be, never fights alone). That’s where the story ends for Delhi.

So, just to test his theory, this guy from Mumbai (all evidence points here) decides to play this trick. He knows this chick is interested in him (time’s passed since Delhi, and Mumbai’s a skirt-chaser), but he’s never really taken an active interest, cuz well, Mumbai’s in love with someone else, but that someone doesn’t live in Pimpri, and wouldn’t know about this trick. Anyway, Mumbai decides to play a game. He, takes the chick out, and just to spite the ogre, Mumbai walks around with the chick, right in front of the ogre and his friends. Now, ogre is fuming. Mumbai’s walked around with her hand-in-hand a few times in front of the ogre. He’s about to burst. Mumbai’s waiting, and waiting. But nothing’s happening. No confrontation, no fight, no beating up, nothing. Mumbai realizes why, his theory’s perfect. Mumbai has for a long time, known a very important person from the Nationalist Congress Party. Mumbai’s well known in the political circuit of Pimpri, Big Don NCP treats Mumbai like a son. Technically, Mumbai has no money, isn’t originally from Pimpri, but suddenly, people are afraid of him. He does as he pleases, and nobody has the guts to do anything about it.

But then, one day, the ogre approaches Mumbai. Suddenly Mumbai becomes aware that if this guy gets physical, Mumbai (who’s rather small build-wise), will perish even before his protectors can come and burn the ogre alive! The ogre approaches, and timidly tells Mumbai “you like this chick don’t you? If you’ve liked her all the time, you should’ve told me, even I liked her, but now that I know you do, I’ll let her go”

Mumbai sniggers. His theory is proven. He’s understood how this place works. Poor Delhi. Mumbai’s no more interested in the chick. He leaves her and goes back to his girl. Everyone’s bewildered, the ogre, the chick, Delhi, everyone. Except Mumbai. He’s just been enlightened!

Friday, March 28, 2008

college sodun jaatana

Yeah, i know that a blog usually has stuff that you write yourself, but this one's by a friend of mine. He's been attempting poetry for a while now, he tried and failed......and finally decided to write in 'marathi' because he believed that would help him write something decent.

It did. He's written this one! It's basically a retrospective poem about college life. I notice that he's as bitter about pimpri as I am. 4 years here has been more than enough. Kept hoping it would end soon, but now that it's ending, im getting reminiscent about the "good old times". Wonder why this happens everytime. Anyway take a look at the poem. Oh BTW, you wont get it unless you understand marathi!



COLLEGE SODUN JAATANA

घरापासून दूरवर आलो मी ह्या पुण्यनगरीत
उत्साह, भिती, थ्रिल, ... भावनांचे मनात झाले भरित

चार वर्षे एकट्याने राहायचे
शिक्षण घेऊन स्वतंत्र व्हायचे
असे ते दिवस फ़ुलायाचे
आयुष्याचे स्वप्न सजवायचे

आई वडीलांचे लक्ष नसणार
केव्हाही झोपणार, उठणार, कसाही वागणार
दिवसभर टवाळ्क्या, मस्ती करणार
वेळ उरलाचं तर लेक्चर attend करणार

चारही वर्षांचा दिनक्रम ठरलेला
प्रत्येक दिवस timepass ने खच्चुन भरलेला
खाणं, पिणं, मौज-मजा
प्रत्येक दिवसाचा मीच राजा

खुप वाट पाहीली परंतु प्रेमप्रकरण झालेच नाही
एखादी जरी आवडली तरी कधी तिला विचारलंच नाही
एखादी सुंदर मुलगी यायची माझ्या स्वप्नी
पण माझा नंबर लागलाच नाही ती व्हायची माझी वहिनी

अधुनमधून परिक्षेचा राहु पत्रिकेत करायचा भ्रमण
अभ्यास करताना वाटायचे कधी सुटणार हे ग्रहण
दिवसभर लेक्चर, प्राक्टिकल, आणि जरनल submission
syllabus पाहून चक्कर येते आणि मास्तर देतो tension
xerox, नोट्स याशिवाय topper चा ठेवायचा मान
एवढं सगळं करुनसुद्धा मार्क मिळाले नाहीत छान
चा दिवस जवळ येतो तसं सुचतं मला अध्यात्म
'यह सब मोह-माया है' म्हणुन येतं मला वैराग्यं

college life चे धुंद दिवस लळा लावून गेले निघुन
पण जाता जाता देऊन गेले सुख दु:ख दोन्ही भरभरुन

सुख त्यांच्या आठवणीचे, दु:ख त्यांच्या जाण्याचे
आता फ़क्त कापत राहायचे अंतर जन्म आणि मरणाचे

कॉलेजमधले मित्र-मैत्रिणी, शिक्षक आणि इतर सोबती
आता यापुढे एकटयानेच चालायचंय, कोणीच नसणार अवतीभवती

चार वर्षांचं हे माझं जग कालचक्रात विरघळून गेलं
काहीच शिल्लक ठेवलं नाही सारं काही हिरावून नेलं

मित्रांची टिंगल, मुलींची छेड, मुक्त जीवन आणि दुनियादारी
आता ह्यातलं काहीच नाही आता फ़क्त - जबाबदारी

कॉलेजमधली चार वर्षं गेली हवेत विरुन
college life ची शेवटची रात्र गेली ह्र्दय चिरुन

माझ्या या कवितेत कदाचित वाटणार नाही तुम्हाला तथ्य
पण जेव्हा कॉलेज सोडुन जाल ना; तेव्हा जाणवेल ह्यातलं सत्य

By Nikhil (YEDA) Nazirkar.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Meatloaf

For quite a while, i've been a really big fan of the rock&roll group - MEATLOAF. I like quite a few of their songs. Apart from the music, which is obviously their USP, the lyrics are really something. Its not a very well known group, they've had quite a following, but kinda faded out of the groove a few years back. The music never looses its touch though. The band itself consists of their lead singer - Marvin Lee Aday (a.k.a. Meatloaf). The music has always had that 80's groove to it. The rock and roll feel. Though, Meatloaf prefers to call it "wagnerian rock" or "progressive rock", its not far from good old vintage rock.

The noteworthy thing is the lyrics like i said before. The lyrics are actually written by a 'Jim Steinman'. Why i speak of this guy is, the lyrics are original and quite impressive. They have that whole "sex, drugs, rock&roll" thing going for them. But what differentiates their music from their other contemporary groups is their affinity towards Harleys for one, and the whole inclination towards dark and gothic lyrics. Quite a few of their songs discuss themes like these. Meat Loaf or the songwriter Steinman seem to be totally taken with bats - which is why all their albums are name Bat out of Hell! Every song has something about Harleys, the sound of a revving Hog especially. Harleys are mentioned in almost every song. Another important thing about their songs is the whole REBELLIOUS streak. Its one of the reasons their songs have always appealed to me. A lot of rebellion and a lot of gothic defeatism is evident in the songs.

I personally suggest everyone reading this blog try out a few of their songs. They should be available on P2P, but considering its not that famous a group, you might have to search around a bit. The older albums - Bat out of Hell I and II have some of my favorite songs, though the latest album isnt bad either. I'll go ahead and list a few of my favorite Meat Loaf songs so as to make it a little easier:

1) Bat out of Hell - rocking, dark!
2) Objects in the rear view mirror - just unbelievable
3) Rock & Roll dreams
4) I would do anything for love
5) Paradise by the dashboard light

& my personal favorite
6) wasted youth (a.k.a - everything louder than everything else)



This blog entry is a whole lot different than the others i've been posting all this while, but i felt it worth to mention Meat Loaf. If there's any other fans that are reading this....Cheers! and if i'm able to create some more meatloaf fans thanks to this...Cheers!

Just try to understand the lyrics of the songs...especially wasted youth. Then you'll know what i've been talking about. Songs like those make me a little happier cuz it helps me understand that other people think the way I do. Steinman is awesome - HAIL! As is Meat Loaf himself - HAIL you too!

An excerpt from the lyrics of wasted youth!

They got a file on me and it's a mile long and they say that they got all of the proof,
that I'm just another case of arrested development and just another wasted youth
They say that I'm in need of some radical discipline, they say I gotta face the truth,
that I'm just another case of arrested development and just another wasted youth

They say I'm wild and I'm reckless
I should be acting my age
I'm an impressionable child in a tumultuous world,
and they say I'm at a difficult stage

But it seems to me to the contrary, of all the crap they're going to put on the page,
that a wasted youth is better by far than a wise and productive old age!
A wasted youth is better by far than a wise and productive old age!



ROCK ON!

http://www.meatloaf.net/